Doubt?

In my existence on this planet, I have always tried to improve myself in whatever endeavor I choose to participate in. It’s that competition thing in me. Now I’m not uber competitive to the point of obsession, but I appreciate and enjoy competing.

This is why I enjoyed sports so much. In my previous life as an athlete, I wasn’t the best player on my team, but I tried to be the hardest worker on my team. And that always seemed to translate to more playing time and opportunities to make plays. For me, the formula was Learning + Effort = Success.

This was the reason that I’ve always been into sports. That’s why I’m still into sports hard to this day…or am I?

During the recent sports drought, I had to find other things to pass the time. Sure, I had my Law and Order library, but I sought more. Netflix. Hulu. Prime. Heck I even got back into…reading books. I don’t even want to tell you the number of magazines I have subscribed to these past few months. When sports slowly came back to the TV, I thought I heard the tone “Hallelujah” through the speakers.

But then, a funny thing happened. I didn’t run to the TV like I thought I would. Sporting events were just another option. I realized that I missed the live baseball crowds that could motivate a home team to a victory. Pumping in crowd noise just didn’t do it for me. And as for those stand-up poster board “fans”? Are you kidding me? I almost forgot the NBA restarted their season last night.

I ended up not watching that much.

So, I wonder. Do I have to just gradually get back into it or did I find out that there is more to life just sports?

To be determined.